What I Know About Death

As many of you know I had a shared NDE with my twin sister when we were six years old.  The circumstance behind it is a book in itself so I won’t go into it but I will take you back into time and my own experience as well as what I’ve seen.

Now Paul says “to be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord”.  This is true.  Come with me to a big adventure and realize not all are the same.  We are unique in God’s eyes and each are dealt with on an individual basis and the things that led up to the poisoning (our NDE) will be in my book.

Now that night after the poisoning my sister and I lay in our twin beds ready for death.  It was assured, almost a divine act, yet I knew of the consequences especially after seeing what happened to my great grandfather and his suicide.  If you can imagine knowing it was certain and just waiting.  I remember laying on my stomach feeling my last struggling breaths, laboring in and out.  The bedroom seemed darker than normal as I kept staring at my sister whose bed was next to mine not knowing if she was dead or alive.  All I knew was I was close and there was no turning back even if I wanted to.  In my six-year-old mind, it was the only way to reach God and tell him all the horrible evils that were perpetrated on us and what we’d have to endure in this new home with the new family.  We had heard bits and pieces about him and that he was our true Father.  It just made sense at the time.

And then… everything stopped, like time itself.  The air was stale and everything around me was dark as I relinquished into total silence.  I lay there waiting and wondering if this was death, i was aware, yet unable to move.  It seemed like forever when I heard a strong man’s voice coming from the foot of my bed saying, “Get up, someone wants to see you.”

I was startled but I still wasn’t able to move to see who it was.  Again, this time more demanding, “Get up, someone wants to see you!”  I squirmed and wiggled in my body trying to release myself from what felt like a prison.  “Get up!”  The man’s voice said again, and I tried with all of my might to break free and then suddenly my arm and then the rest of my spirit as I sat up and looked around.  I saw my sister at the foot of her bed. Her angel was talking to her and they both turned and looked at me.  Then I looked at the foot of my bed and saw him, my angel.  He wasn’t like my sisters.  He was tall.  His head reaching the ceiling and he wore a white robe with a golden rope tied around his waist with a tassel at the end.  He had blonde​ golden hair and blue eyes and was holding a lamp that shining through the darkness of the room.

I knew he was mad and the person waiting to see me was mad too but what could I do.  I stood up and walked over to him and he said, “We have to go.”  His voice was stern and unwavering.

I said, “I’m not supposed to go with strangers, what is your name?”  Unsure of our destination as I looked him up and down but somehow I knew this “someone” was God.

He said, “My name is Lucciouious.”  And then gave me a scroll with a pen and showed me similitudes of his past through eons of times and places.  I tried writing down his name but I didn’t know how to spell it much less write it down, however, the images stayed glued into my mind of the warrior he is and was with the countless victories and ways he fought.  I got a new respect and knew he was my protection and things didn’t feel so scary anymore.  I turned away from the scroll frustrated that I couldn’t write his name and he said, “Keep it, you’ll need it to write down end time events that you’ll be shown. You’re the last messenger.”

I didn’t know what he meant but I felt at ease so I walked up to him and looked up and asked, “Do you know the show “The Adam’s Family?”

He looked puzzled and said, “No.”

I said, “Well, there is this guy named Lurch and not that you look like him because he’s kind of a monster but you’re as big and tall as he is, so can I call you that since I can’t really pronounce your name?”

I don’t know if he knew what to say still looking puzzled but agreed then we turned to my sister and her angel because it was time to leave.  She didn’t look too happy so I told Lurch I wanted to talk to her for a second.  I walked over and started talking to her and her angel.  He was about our height but a different kind of angel.  Not like Lurch but this one kept changing and never staying as one person or thing.  I could see why she got a little annoyed because it made me feel dizzy and sick watching him.  I stepped in for her and asked him if he could just stay the same and please not change and that people would like him better.  He looked sad and said he was made that way he couldn’t help it. So I told him to just concentrate.  It didn’t work… I looked at my sister and she asked if we could trade angels.  By then Lurch had come up and said it was time to go so I told her no because Lurch was my angel and I didn’t want to hurt his feelings.  The fact was I didn’t want to be with her angel as I glanced over to him to see this time he looked like a traveler wearing a backpack and I wondered how far we were going.

Lurch told me to grab hold of his waist as tight as I could.  I backed away and looked up to see his face shining like the sun with a rainbow around his head.  I could tell he knew the reason why I flinched and he said in a soft voice, “It’s okay, I won’t hurt you.”  I felt he was telling me the truth as I came near again and examined his white garment robe and golden rope with the tassel at the end.  I reached my little arms around his waist and looked up smiling as I squinted my eyes taking in all the colors I could see around his head.

He said, “Hold on tight.” As the floor began to make a low roar noise, sounding like it was moving in a circular motion.  First slowly then it picked up speed.  Suddenly the heavens opened up and we shot up through at resounding speed which took me off guard entering into a tunnel with flashing lights and swirling clouds.  I was terrified.  I looked to my right and saw my sister having the time of her life.  “Stop!  Stop!  Stop! I yelled, “I’m losing my grip!  Slow down!” I felt as if I was going to die or fall off and be left behind.

“We can’t stop now, just hold on,” Lurch yelled back.

“No stop!” I yelled back.

We slowed down and stopped in the middle of nowhere.  My sister said, “She’s such a fraidy-cat”, while Smiling and pointing at me.

I looked over at her and said, “I’m not… just we were going too fast.  We could go slower you know”, feeling a little indignant and not wanting to go back on that ride.

Lurch said we could take a breather so my sister and I went exploring into the darkness. There were lights and people in there and suddenly he called us back.  She wanted to see more but he was saying there was not enough time so I grabbed a hold of his waist again. This time more prepared and less scared.

This is where I leave you – until the next entry.





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